Embracing the Unfamiliar Self

By MEERO

Nothing is familiar anymore!


When I look around, metaphorically or physically, nothing is familiar anymore. My city doesn't look like my city, and my countries (yes, both my countries) don't look the same anymore!

I'm not trying to get political this time, even though I always believed politics is in everything, including the oxygen you breathe. But I am talking about this very safe feeling of "familiarity" that I didn't think you could lose!


One day, I woke up and saw everything in a different light. I'm not exaggerating. Everything I used to be,  like, have, own, feel, think, see, and/or hear is all different.

And, of course, my first thought is that I'm naturally losing my mind or I am going through my mid-life crisis! I'm not sure why they call it a crisis if going through it is making me love wearing color for the first time in my life!

It could also be an overcompensation for my low physical energy!


I don't know why, though, they called it a crisis, or what they mean by it. However, the one crisis for sure in this phase is that nothing is familiar anymore, not even my own skin. I wonder when the last time I felt this way was!


Maybe when I had my first period and wasn't sure what to do, or when I had a baby at 21 and experienced postpartum depression that lasted longer than six months (talk about being someone else!), but that's for another blog post. :)


Or when I lost my mom and felt like an orphan—yes, a 37-year-old orphan; how can one feel like an orphan at that age? But I did, and I still do from time to time. I felt tiny, like a two-inch human living in a massive world without the only person who loved me unconditionally. I always thought the word orphan belonged to a much younger group of people, but it's more than a feeling; it's a state of being.


Why hasn't anyone warned us that this stage would be so confusing? 


Let me tell you my experience so far as a middle-aged woman. 


Essentially, a new version of you is waiting for all your past versions on the other side, from the baby you were to the person you are or think you are today.


The reason I said "pre-designed" is that it feels like I'm only now discovering the new me that's been there all along. I don't know precisely where, but it feels like I'm finding her piece by piece! And she's leading the way; she's leading the baby, the little girl, the teenager, and the young, wild woman— and they all conform to her.


She has all the strings. She unveils any of these past versions of you at any time she desires, but she is leading with love and compassion. 


She protects you, all of you. She is powerful and fierce, and she's scared of no one.


So, even though nothing is familiar anymore, if you choose, you will let this new, unfamiliar person lead the way. Please close your eyes. She's been around enough to lead the way.


Love & Peace,


Meero



An Egyptian-American Certified success coach who spent the last two decades in New York’s fashion industry is now embracing a new chapter in her life. With a fresh perspective and a deep sense of purpose, she is transitioning to a career as a life coach. Her journey through personal and professional challenges has led her to realize that her true calling lies in helping and serving others. By guiding people through their struggles, she aims to make a meaningful impact on the world—something she found lacking in the fashion industry.

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